This pregnancy has been much easier than Miles'. I think I'm in better overall health b/c I've been treating Lyme for 6 years and before we didn't know I had it, and also it's just a different perspective this time. I feel blessed to be having this baby and I also know that pregnancy is a means to a wonderful end that is incredibly worth it. With Miles, I felt like I was pregnant for years. This time, I've tried to just carry on with life and let the days pass by. That's much easier to do with a good pregnancy.
A couple things that are getting me through this pregnancy are Zip Sox. Ummmm these have been a game changer for me. I've been able to completely cut out the swelling by wearing these while I'm at work. Bonus...they were $4.99 at Bed, Bath & Beyond. I really think the lack of swelling has made everything else better. I only wear them while I'm at work. You can't see them with my dress pants unless I sit down, and usually my feet are under my desk. No swelling = still rocking my heels.
This is a crazy one, but Sonic water. Drinking a lot of water is the only way to cut down on the contractions. It's been a little challenging b/c water gives me heartburn, but I've been trying to drink as much as possible. It just tastes better from Sonic...the cup, the straw, the ice....it's just better. Whatever works, right?
If you know me well, you know I'm not a fan of pregnancy. I've tried hard to embrace this one and be joyful. I'm not stressing about the weight gain this time or an occasional bad pregnancy day. This too shall pass and what a blessing we will have. Breathe by Jonny Diaz is my new theme song. The Lord has taught me so much during this pregnancy about slowing down. Not everything has to be perfect and there is more to life than my 'to do' list. I love the line in the song that says "Lay down what's good and find what's best". It's not that my things are bad, but there might be something more important, such as spending time with boys that will grow up way too fast.
Speaking of boys...this one had an eventful day.
At the very end of our church service, someone came in to get Darrin. They didn't say why. I was hoping they just needed his help with something, but I was a little concerned that something happened to Miles. It didn't seem too urgent and I always try to let Darrin be the great dad he is. No reason for me to run and inspect the situation. I don't claim to be an expert on parenting, but I will say that way too many women dismiss dads as if to say that moms are the only capable parent. Not true and in my opinion, it's an injustice to dads and for children to witness! Church ended in five minutes and I was just on my way to find Darrin when he came to get me.
The kids went to the playground during church today. Miles jumped up to get on the monkey bars and fell on his wrist. He was clearly in pain when I got to him. Everyone had taken good care of him, but some nurses that go to church with us said that we needed to take him for x-rays. There was a time just a year ago that I said we wouldn't ever be able to tell if Miles was hurt b/c he cried over everything. Those days have been over for a while and it was clear today that he was hurting.
To make a long story short, when we checked into the hospital, a nurse took one look as we were checking in and called to the back to say that it was broken. They got us back quickly. X-rays confirmed that he has a greenstick fracture, which is apparently painful, but the best kind you can have. We've been reassured by the ER doctor, some nurse friends, and another mom that has dealt with this....so we are super hopeful that we are facing a quick recovery. We have to follow up with an orthopedic on Tuesday.
I have to say, he was a trooper. He was in pain and scared of what the ER visit might entail, but he was brave. Even just a year ago this would have been a travesty. He sure has grown up. It's so nice when little people develop reasoning skills! He was in a pain after we got home. I think he was bored and reality set in a little. The three of us played some games and then he was fine. He's just going to need extra attention until he gets a hard cast and can move a little more freely.
The biggest disappointment is the end of baseball season. He made it through the regular season, which we are very thankful for, but he will miss the tournament. Also, he was selected for the All Star team and he'll have to miss that too. Minor in the scheme of life, but sad nonetheless for all three of us.
We've not dealt with any broken bones or long illnesses with Miles. After today, I have a new appreciation for these types of incidents. It was a hard day. It was sad to watch Miles in pain. It was scary to wonder if he would need surgery for a bad break. It was heartbreaking to know that his little dreams of All Stars and a fun summer have changed. It was just a sad day. In my mind all day, I kept thinking about how much worse things could be. We made it through the regular season of baseball, we don't have a vacation scheduled, Carson's not here yet, and so many other things that could be terribly wrong. Even knowing and believing those things in my head, it was still a sad day. I've always seen kids with broken bones and such and never really gave much thought to the parents. I have a new empathy. Miles is asleep now with the help of some pain meds. Hopefully we will all get a sufficient amount of sleep. Good night, all!